Another navel gazing post for those of you scoring at home.
You know one thing I have always seemed to lack? Focus. If I had to name two things that usually result in success, focus and hard work would be up at the top. It seems like in today’s world those who are able to focus and concentrate their efforts are the ones that get ahead.
Me, I just seem to stumble from one thing to the other never really making decisions with any kind of long term vision in mind. Taking blogging for example. Focus and diligence will get you far in the blog world. Natural talent or connections help a lot too, but focus is a big bonus. This, among many other things, has kept me from reaching the fame and fortune that other bloggers have achieved.
I can’t seem to handle the daily grind of writing about the topic du jure day-in-day-out. When the mood strikes I can write passionately about politics, culture, and foreign policy. But I can just as easily lose interest. These days with so many bloggers cranking out opinion on every subject under the sun, I just don’t feel like I have much to add. In the early days blogging felt like a conversation; now it feels like shouting into the wind.
I thought maybe books would provide that focus, and in many ways it has. I am more interested in reading books then I am in almost anything else these days. But within that subject I still lack focus. I am the quintessential jack-of-all-trades master of none.
Instead of focusing on a particular genre (or even fiction or non-fiction) I jump wildly from conservative politics to sports to literary fiction to fantasy to humor and everywhere in between. So what, you say. It is your blog, write what you want. Right? Well, yes and no. There is a sense in which you do this simply for your own enjoyment. But there is rarely a writer that doesn’t think about having an audience; of appealing to people and connecting with them. Quite often I feel like I am writing for Google; laying down keywords for future searches.
I guess I just feel a little lost these days – perhaps that is the cold medicine talking. I am not sure what I am trying to accomplish. I feel like I need to organize and focus my energies so I can get a more tangible sense of what this web page is about. Is this just a sort of amateur Publishers Weekly where I offer my assessments of whatever books happen to come my way? Is this just a handy way for me to track my reading and keep notes about the books I have read? Or is this just the necessary tool to get free books?
I think the best way to figure some of this out is to pull back and slow down. To often I feel like I have to post something everyday to keep readers coming back; I get to caught up in the stats. I also tend to rush through books because of the pressure of my TBR pile. I want to fight these tendencies and instead focus on quality instead of quantity. If I post thoughtful well written stuff, I think the rest will take care of itself. Or if it doesn’t I can live with it.
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